Abandoned...

Abandoned: unrestrained or uncontrolled; to give up the control; to yield

This year as I begin to think about what God is calling me to I feel a real sense that He is calling me back to meditate and focus my life on what it means to truly surrender all that I am to Him. I think the longer I walk with Him and the more He reveals himself to me-the more that is required of me! This absolutely scares me because it means I have to let go of more and more of my life. This is my greatest struggle. Unfortunately I'm so good at trusting God in the safe areas of my life. I don't want to be safe, I want to be dangerous for the kingdom of God. I refuse to allow my life to be marginalized this year and the only way for that to happen is for me to ABANDON ALL THAT I AM TO ALL THAT HE IS!
I have been reflecting on my 16 years as a Christ follower and I've seen some amazing things! I've seen the hand of God and His mighty power at work in and through my life in ways I could have never imagined. I've seen GOD deliver me from the those who sought my life in Bangladesh. I've seen the impossible become a reality through prayer and fasting as God healed a close and dear friend from cancer. I've seen a man on his death bed rise up and walk away to the praise of the glory of God. I have seen a village of Hindus and Muslims miraculously broken by Gods Spirit and bow and receive Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior. He has used me in numerous ways to lead people to Christ and then to disciple them to do the same! I have seen God do a lot in 13 years of following Him...but I want to see more! I want to KNOW HIM MORE. I want to LOVE HIM MORE, I want to be consumed by Him. So as I begin this journey with God this year my simple prayer is that God would allow me to see what it means to be completely abandoned to HIM. An uncontrolled, unrestrained relentless pursuit of Jesus Christ!

Not Ashamed...Bill